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Time since i wrote (:
I had some amazing words of wisdom from Lee yesterday, which helped me so much.
It's made me see whats happening is due to peoples insecurities.
Im totally over everything. To be honest its actually not worth it, i stuck by them for 2 years when no-one else would have, and ive just got it thrown back in my face. So why should i keep on trying. 4 weeks left than thats it (:
But tbh there obviously not secure in who they are if they have to pretend to be someone else to gain friends.
I just dont give a shit anymore tbh, 4 weeks then i can forgot about everything. Well actually ive managed to do that already
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and the pro out of it all is, ive got my life back.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRr.
I dont get it! one minute there lovely to me, talking to me, been friendly
and then the next. they turn! telling people they want me to stay away,
trying to befriend everybody. i think i need to distance myself tbh,
if they dont want my friendship its their loss tbh.
but im gonna have a good time at the party, tbh i dont care what happens
just want to have a good time (:
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I really dont particuarly want to go back to school today. Going to try and find a way not to tbh.
After things that happend last night which im not gonna broadcast on the internet, i dont know whats going to happen.
Hope i can still go to penny and anny's party. I think its what i need.
Something to take my mind of everything, bit of a dance (:
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First Blog.

I've started this blog because so much shit has been going on in my life lately,
and ive started getting really angry and upset again. I thought blogging, even if
only me sees it, will help me get rid of some of the upset, so all the people
ive been telling what's wrong wont have to here it anymore.

Things are just going so shit at the moment. especially school, but most people know why that is.
It has cut me up so much. having your best friend tell you that she hates you, and that she wants you to fuck of out of her life for no reason whatsoever. I hope no-one has to go through the pain that i'm going through atm because its just so horrible. I dont want to get up in the morning, and when i go to bed i just want to sleep forever. Shes trying to take all my friends off me, especially 3 of my most important friends, and shes doing it on purpose. I just wish they could see what she's doing ,and how shes loving it that sometimes i'm on my own. Shes using them, shes using everyone. Shes been so nice to everyone to make me feel like shit, and tbh, not many people can see what shes doing because shes just overpowering them with her fake niceness. I dont know what ive done wrong. We were so close, and shes loving seeing me go through pain. I just dont know what to do. I just wish they could see what she is doing, but they dont because i dont make scenes in public. I just wish someone could understand, and see past her. Because atm, tbh, i totally feel on my own. Ive tried so hard with her, she can have a go at me or say something to me in public, no one will say anything, but if i say anything to her, everyone is on my back. and what shes done with barcelona is on purpose aswell. i really want to hate her, i honestly do. but because shes been my best friend for so long, im finding it hard to
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