I've started this blog because so much shit has been going on in my life lately,
and ive started getting really angry and upset again. I thought blogging, even if
only me sees it, will help me get rid of some of the upset, so all the people
ive been telling what's wrong wont have to here it anymore.
Things are just going so shit at the moment. especially school, but most people know why that is.
It has cut me up so much. having your best friend tell you that she hates you, and that she wants you to fuck of out of her life for no reason whatsoever. I hope no-one has to go through the pain that i'm going through atm because its just so horrible. I dont want to get up in the morning, and when i go to bed i just want to sleep forever. Shes trying to take all my friends off me, especially 3 of my most important friends, and shes doing it on purpose. I just wish they could see what she's doing ,and how shes loving it that sometimes i'm on my own. Shes using them, shes using everyone. Shes been so nice to everyone to make me feel like shit, and tbh, not many people can see what shes doing because shes just overpowering them with her fake niceness. I dont know what ive done wrong. We were so close, and shes loving seeing me go through pain. I just dont know what to do. I just wish they could see what she is doing, but they dont because i dont make scenes in public. I just wish someone could understand, and see past her. Because atm, tbh, i totally feel on my own. Ive tried so hard with her, she can have a go at me or say something to me in public, no one will say anything, but if i say anything to her, everyone is on my back. and what shes done with barcelona is on purpose aswell. i really want to hate her, i honestly do. but because shes been my best friend for so long, im finding it hard to
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